THE INNER SELF
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My focus lately has been less on the political and more on the psychological and cultural aspects of this race and the effect on the democratric community as a whole.

My approach and my tone have changed over the last few weeks as I have stopped analysing everyone else and taken a good hard look at myself. I do not like everything I have seen.

I care as deeply and with as much passion about the outcome of this election as anyone, but when I stand back and look at my own words, from an objective view point, I have come to understand that I may know as little about myself as I do about any of you.

Who is this person so esily provoced to rage, so willing to savage the thoughts of another human being? I do not know this person and I don't think I like him. Passion and conviction are not enough when they have become the weapons with which I would assault another human soul.

It isn't easy, the provocation is real, but the passion which has guided my life has led me to a dark and intolerent place. It will take time and determined introspection to recover my true self from this chaos of emotion and resentment.

I will endeavor with all the strength I can muster to retrace my steps down this twisted trail and look not in judgement at those I oppose, but toward myself.

It is my mission to endure this internal turmoil and seek out the better nature of my essence. It is my goal to search out what remains and to embrace the inner self I had abandoned not so long ago.

Reader Comments
  
good post
By Rubymom May 9th 2008 at 1:32 pm EDT
I have read your post and I htink you are very passionate and worried. From what I can see you are a good person. Don't be quiet so hard on yourself!
  
Beautiful...
By Betty Lou - Independent May 9th 2008 at 1:35 pm EDT
THAT IS THE AMERICAN WAY, that is about what taking responsibility can encompass
  
wow
By Ix May 9th 2008 at 1:36 pm EDT
Jackie- great post. Introspection is always a tough prospect. Kudos to you for doing it, and making your admissions. I think many (including myself) would benefit from doing the same.

You rock!
  
thank you
By pcmoore28 May 9th 2008 at 1:44 pm EDT
Jackie, another great post. Look, what you are feeling is what a lot of us are experiencing right now. No one likes to be called names because they do not support a certain candidate and the attempts to blame us for McCain getting elected if we do not go along to get along....are preposterous and infantile.

Your emotions are real and expected.
Re: thank you
By Mike May 10th 2008 at 8:12 pm EDT
But, if Obama is the nominee and you vote against him YOU will be one who is helping to elect McBush. It WILL be your fault then.

Remember that when your brother, son, cousin, or whomever else is killed in Iraq.

It was your fault if you vote for McCain.
  
You are exactly who I thought you were
By Barb May 9th 2008 at 2:21 pm EDT
In the beginning when we first met, I gave you a hard time and asked you to look at your words--the reason was that I could see your own pain reflected in them. I've been there myself--probably everyone has. That is the glue that will hold us together in the end. We are caring, compassionate people who can feel the pain of others who are hurting. That is why we will win, because we will change hearts and minds. Violence and hate can never match the power of love and understanding. I believe that with all of my heart and soul, and I bet that you do too. That is why we will win.

Peace & hugs to you,
Barb

(dammit, now you made me cry)
  
Hugs
By Blueberry May 9th 2008 at 3:16 pm EDT
And this is why I still have faith in humanity. We'll get through this together, Jackie, and we'll be stronger and wiser and more compassionate as a result.

Peace.
  
5 *s
By Pale Rider May 9th 2008 at 4:05 pm EDT
Reminds me of the Serenity statement (some would say poem, but, it is not a poem.) One can only hope that many who are being warped by their passion could step outside themselves, observe their behavior, and then do some introspection of their own.
  
Great Post
By Sue Sue's Straight Talk Express May 9th 2008 at 4:42 pm EDT
Jackie, I love you. What a nice post. I read it to my co-worker and she liked it too. She called you a sweetheart!
  
Can We All Look Inside
By MAL2091 May 9th 2008 at 5:02 pm EDT
I have tried in 98% of my posts to try and focus everyone on the Democrats winning in November and THEN all of us keeping them honest. Government by the people (thats us) for the people (us again).

We need to win and change the direction of our nation. HIllary or Barack would be a fine president If and only If we keep them on the straight and narrow.

How are thing sso out of control now? We allowed the Bush administration o feed us lines of bull and then bully us into contnued consumption of it. We need each other Democrats to win and we need each other to keep the next Democratic president headed in the right direction.

We should all look inside and hopefully chase out the demons that have made us at times turn this into a middle school popularity contest or a foot ball game. Its serious $#@% because its our lives and livelihoods etc.
  
Jackie, I wish
By Democrat in Santa Cruz, CA May 9th 2008 at 6:16 pm EDT
That You Were Obama's Spiritual Advisor.
Re: Jackie, I wish
By BatonRougeDem May 9th 2008 at 6:57 pm EDT
I'd go further and say I wish Jackie was Obama, not his spiritual advisor.
  
I'm happy for you Jackie.
By marsha May 9th 2008 at 10:29 pm EDT
I find that being quiet leads me to my inner light.
There is not enough queit in the world.
Being thankful and peaceful, I believe, leads to happiness.
I don't profess to be good at it all the time, but I believe it to be true.
peace to you,
marsha
  
exactly
By Moses May 10th 2008 at 8:03 pm EDT
I know exactly where you are coming from. It is a great struggle to refrain from the personal denigration and name calling that comes from some ardent supporters. Personal attacks such as "you're a racist" or "you're a sexist" or "you drank the koolaid" (all of which fit attacks made by both sides here) are counterproductive.